Finally, 2008 ends. It was such a long year for me, a lot of big things and big decisions happened during that year. I started the year with my husband leaving me to go to the army, to make our lives “better”, decision we both hated so much but money wise we were desperate. I knew that decision had a 50 / 50 percent chance of backfire on me. Well, we did bought our first house with the money from the army, paid up some debts and had fun, but a little after that, when he returned on June the other 50% started to come out. Lucky me that on July 1st it was our 6th wedding anniversary!! Yeah whatever… On march I turned 30 so it was kind of exiting for me, different from most of women I’ve always thought that I would start to have total control of my life from my 30’s to my 40’s and so far that’s my plan… I started studying again just to conclude that I’m too old for that now, working and studying this time was a nightmare for me, I’ve done it before but this time… well I’m just old but somehow I got to finish… Also, I finally took the decision of quitting my shitty job that had me so sad for 4 years, one day I said “Bitch you have 30 days to find a job well paid and that you love”, well it seems like the “Secret’ worked out, on day number 30 I received a call from my actual boss calling me for an interview and from 253 resumes she received, I got the job. I like to think that 30 is my new lucky number… On September my daughter turned 2 and she’s just lovely! On October for the first time we mention the word “divorce” and we went on and off, from crying to laughing and to crying again, between love and hate, truths and lies and waiting, waiting and waiting until our time ran out. So I made another huge decision, I wanted to be alone, decision that used to scare the shit out of me, but I started to see things with a different expectation.
The Sunrise from my Cellphone
Now I know I’m changed, I’ve lost 20 pounds, I’m flirting again, I took off my “no matter what I’ll never take it off” ring and so did my husband but way before me. I don’t know what will happen between us later on, but for now I want to fly away. I’ve started to commit to myself only. I’m having fun, I’m feeling good, and I am in peace. On the New Year Eve after celebrating the New Year arrival with my daughter and husband I went to a big party with a friend and after that we went to a stranger apartment to some get together where some other friends were. That was so not me, hanging out so late. I’ve always had a “get home before sunrise” policy but that day I did something I’ve never done before, I saw the first sunrise of a new year, 2009… It was beautiful, we had an amazing view and everybody was happy, enjoying and so was I and that was the moment when I finally felt that I was going to be alright and that 2009 would be good to me. So, starting the New Year I got a “flirt” call early in the morning, I made peace with my husband to keep it civil until the divorce it’s over and I made some new friends that night… I can’t complain except for the fact that I had to work early in the morning, yes I did! The rest was just perfect! Good luck to all, Peace!
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